thanks for listening Henry. :]

ughh youre so annoying.
one day you can be so peppy and cheery and next youre the biggest bitch in the world.
the one day im really sick and you decide to take care of me you start using it against me saying i never help you or anything.
I appreciate you taking care of me but how can you start acting all pissy saying i never help you.
How can i never help you, i help you basically every single day.
Even if its something small or whatever i still help you.
I've taken care of you when you were sick before and everything.
Jeez, just cause you took care of me today now you can just use it against me and whatever trying to make me look bad.
I cant believe you would do that.
I hate that about you.
You get so irritable and you get so pissed off at the smallest things.
You turn into the biggest bitch in the world.
It's not like youre Miss Perfect.
One little thing and youre pissed the fuck off.
I kindly told you once not to tighten my shoes anymore cause it made my shoes feel weird anymore and you didnt even have the decency to loosen them afterwards and you just started bitching out saying i'm blaming you for shit.
SHUT THE FUCK UP.
youre so annoying in your fucking irritable state.
making me seem like im the blame for everything.
i didnt ask you to take care of me, you took it upon yourself.
if i wasnt sick you'd probably wouldnt have done any of the things i asked you to do today.
there is so much more things i can say about you.
i just dont know where i'd group them all.
Youre just a really annoying sister.

so. its the first of february.
hmm so this weekend was spend mostly at the park playing tennis/volleyball with my sisters and cousin. it was pretty fun.
i also learned that i have to really slow down when im making turns while driving..but not too slow. haha
tennis is pretty fun, i gotta have some intense game going though cause i suck if i have to lower my intensity x]

hmm hopefully next saturday i can see landon. i miss him ]:
we'll be able to celebrate our 13 months on that day :]

hmm i dont know what to write about.
gahh i cant wait to get my license and carr.
i'll finally have more freedom and be able to do whatever i likee.

oh damn i was suppose to fold laundry but i still didnt..
i guess i'll do it after i get back from dinner
maybe i'll shower first :P
alrighty. i'll update laterr

i dont even know anymore.

blehh when was the last time i updated this thing
RITAAA i hope youre reading thiss. im updating just for you :]

anywhoo. 2nd day back from xmas break.
i acutally made it to health on time todayy :O
but i still was like a minute late to government but ehh i dont really think he cares. so suprisingly i can find a way to make to health on time if i walk pretty quickly. but my government teach, if i tell him im coming from T-2 he'll understand..even if i walk in 5 minutes late or something. but yea i dont like showing up late anyway.

so apart from that random rambling. ehh what else is there to write aboutt.
christmas break i went back to new york for two weeks. basically the whole break. i only spent 1 day during the break back in georgia.

this saturday im going to see landon :D
im happyy. its been like about a month since i last saw himm ]:
were gonna celebrate our 1 year aniversary togetherr :]

rita posted the video up from our 4 and a half hr kareoke day in new york..
oyee i got fat armss.
haha but RAD will live on rita! x]

i dont know what to write about. my life is boringg.
i have a "Laws of Life" essay dued thursday. i think i remember doing this last year or something but i gotta find it. iono if i threw it away or not ><
hopefully i didnt ]:
if i have it i could always just reedit it and everything and make it sound more smartical. ask ritaa im good at that ;D

hmmm. freshmans are stupid.
in health they were saying the most stupidest answers ever and i was just like omfg why am i in his class.
cant wait till february or something. i can finally take the ADAP thing and get my license!

i have this new roomie in my house o.o
my dad's friend's daughter who is studying to be a doctor is rooming in my basement right now. the hospital is apparently near my house so yea thats how it all fits. shes really nice though but i dont know much bout her yet. i met her on sunday and i found out she was moving in yesterday so ive only known her for 2 days so far.

what else to write about.
ritaaa. give me some ideas.
maybee i'll try to update this thing more often
i think i probably will.
just gotta find some interesting things to talk about.

thanks for reading rita o.o
haha
iono who else could be reading this..
i found out apparently yivan read it before.
iono whats even going on between us now.

wow i kinda wrote alot..
a whole entry filled with nothing at all.
i need food.

i am so bored.
i started reading all my old entries in this blog and i didnt even know that i had this blog for over a year already. man so much shit happened. i dont even know where to start.

where is everyone when i need to talk to someone.

yesterday i found out that someone broke into my house back in NY. they messed up the two back doors one of which is steel. apparently they headed straight to my aunt and uncles room and made a huge mess in there. stealing jewelry and money, thousands of dollars worth. apparently my grandma and my cousin were downstairs in the basement. my grandma said she heard footsteps but thought it was my dad coming home from work to get something and then leaving again. man i couldnt believe it when i heard it. i felt so bad for my uncle, i felt horrible, but i was glad that my grandma was safe. imagine if she was upstairs and if they had weapons or something. man its scary. my uncle told me that when hes goes back to ny he isnt gonna come back down here. i dont blame him. me and my sisters are fine on our own, but it would be so much more easier if i had my license and a car. thats the only problem. i was talking to my cousin about it last night and she was saying how she and the family use to talk about how it was a bad time for us to buy a house down here in georgia, how my dad would have to keep traveling back and forth and such. she said that my uncle should come back to ny and bring me and my sisters with him and move back. i want my uncle to go back to ny so he can inspect the damage and stuff, as much as i love him and my whole family up there, im not gonna leave georgia now. i highly doubt my parents would move us back up there but even if they did i wouldnt move. its my senior year in high school and moving back to ny would just fuck me over. i bet i wouldnt even be able to graduate in time. also, i wouldnt leave landon down here. he means everything to me and i love him so much, i wouldnt be able to live without him. its already hard not being able to see him for days/weeks at a time, but not being able to see him for years would be hell. i wouldnt even be able to survive. i hope everything gets better though. once i finally get my license things would go a whole lot easier. my dad wouldnt have to travel back and forth as much and me and my sisters can take care of ourselves down here.

im probably leaving some stuff out that i wanted to say but just forgot. i wish i could talk to someone about this. problem is, i really have no one left.

tell me something i dont know.

so i havent updated this thing in a long time.
many things have happened.
some good, some bad.

this past summer i went back to NY
it was fun, got to hang out with old friends and such.
i truly missed them all.

started my senior year here are North Gwinnett.
college applications and SATs are so stressful.
i hope things will smooth out.

im trying to bring my grades back to to As.
i wanna try to get straight As and bring my GPA up a lil more.
i wish i didnt fck up my freshman and sophmore year.

so things havent really been going so great.
well friend wise.
i feel like ive lost basically everyone who truly meant something to me.
they werent companions or aquaintances, they were my friends.
i feel like i lost the greatest friend of them all though.
thats what hurt the most.

well hmm on the better note
this past weekend was Dalynna's birthday
we basically turned her basement into a club
it was so much fun.

i wish some things were different.