i am so bored.
i started reading all my old entries in this blog and i didnt even know that i had this blog for over a year already. man so much shit happened. i dont even know where to start.
where is everyone when i need to talk to someone.
yesterday i found out that someone broke into my house back in NY. they messed up the two back doors one of which is steel. apparently they headed straight to my aunt and uncles room and made a huge mess in there. stealing jewelry and money, thousands of dollars worth. apparently my grandma and my cousin were downstairs in the basement. my grandma said she heard footsteps but thought it was my dad coming home from work to get something and then leaving again. man i couldnt believe it when i heard it. i felt so bad for my uncle, i felt horrible, but i was glad that my grandma was safe. imagine if she was upstairs and if they had weapons or something. man its scary. my uncle told me that when hes goes back to ny he isnt gonna come back down here. i dont blame him. me and my sisters are fine on our own, but it would be so much more easier if i had my license and a car. thats the only problem. i was talking to my cousin about it last night and she was saying how she and the family use to talk about how it was a bad time for us to buy a house down here in georgia, how my dad would have to keep traveling back and forth and such. she said that my uncle should come back to ny and bring me and my sisters with him and move back. i want my uncle to go back to ny so he can inspect the damage and stuff, as much as i love him and my whole family up there, im not gonna leave georgia now. i highly doubt my parents would move us back up there but even if they did i wouldnt move. its my senior year in high school and moving back to ny would just fuck me over. i bet i wouldnt even be able to graduate in time. also, i wouldnt leave landon down here. he means everything to me and i love him so much, i wouldnt be able to live without him. its already hard not being able to see him for days/weeks at a time, but not being able to see him for years would be hell. i wouldnt even be able to survive. i hope everything gets better though. once i finally get my license things would go a whole lot easier. my dad wouldnt have to travel back and forth as much and me and my sisters can take care of ourselves down here.
im probably leaving some stuff out that i wanted to say but just forgot. i wish i could talk to someone about this. problem is, i really have no one left.
